:: s3ntiments ::

2011-03-28T15:32:00.002+08:00

im pretending not to feel anything. i will be strong. because i got a bigger, much larger choice to make

BLAHBLAHBLAH

2011-02-11T10:21:00.001+08:00

blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.*heaves a big SIGH!*my eye is twitching.. maybe this means something...

thank u~

2011-02-09T16:45:00.001+08:00

for the first time in my life i'm okay with being left out. :) because i know i have great friends, and at least i know the ones that care about me are true about it. no need to think about who's using me, about who's lying to me and about who's trying to get me to be better to them. i know my friends love me for who i am and thats all i care about.yea sure sometimes im very annoyed at the lack

2010-10-19T14:34:00.002+08:00

ranting time.its getting unbearable. you know about those stories where someone always outshines you, always get chosen before you in games? even if you were better (not best per se) but still he/she gets chosen because they're prettier/hotter/sexier or smarter. for awhile you try to bear it, constantly telling yourself that perseverence is key. you remind yourself thats why you came here, to

2010-08-25T10:58:00.002+08:00

ok so yea im back here. not sure if its temporary or permanent yet. but i have a few issues to write about that i dont feel comfortable writing in their blogs.firstly, phyphy.Your list of questions.Am I a person that is difficult to like? Am I likable at all?You are not a persion difficult to like. But you are not a person easy to get to know well: its not easy to get into your inner circle, to

2010-07-21T15:05:00.002+08:00

im getting truly sick of this. i dont know how to describe my parents anymore. i dont know what ive become and why my temper has changed so drastically i feel that my parents nolonger understand me. ok understand is the wrong word to use: they're my parents and a part of them will always subconsciously understand me. maybe our method of communication just isnt right. my mum's constant tantrums

white noise

2010-06-25T14:07:00.001+08:00

one day i will record the white noise in my office. and then you can imagine the distractions here. right now even blasting music at full volume on my computer into my headphones isnt drowning out the white noise. SIGH.

sun/moon combi

2010-06-24T14:56:00.002+08:00

phyphy did this for me.. sounds pretty accurate.Sun in Libra/Moon in CancerThe combination of your Libra Sun and Cancer Moon produces an idealist bent on finding romantic adventure. You are a deep feeling and understanding person. The emotional balance, courtesy and friendliness of Libra blends well with the depth of feeling, sensitivity and tenacity of Cancer. There often may be some confusion

2010-06-17T15:10:00.002+08:00

this about sums up how i feel now.take a breathtake it deep"calm yourself," he says to me."if you play, you play for keepstake the gun, and count to 3."im sweating nowmoving slowno time to thinkmy turn to goand you can see my heart, beatingyou can see it through my chestthat im terrified but im not leavingi know that i must pass this testso just pull the triggersay a prayerto yourselfhe says

goodbye all, TEMPORARILY.

2010-06-14T12:46:00.003+08:00

ive finally decided to go on my hiatus. so in case anyone tries to contact me, if you read this: i dont hate you. The reason why ive decided to go on hiatus is because im beginning to feel that everything is piled on me, and perhaps im taking on too much for me. But being me, i hate to say no and i want to try to help in anyway i can. But i'm starting to feel that everyone is pressuring me into

perseverance: learn from the snail

2010-06-07T14:46:00.003+08:00

there are many reasons why i dont enjoy the company of my colleagues. im not talking about my boss, my boss is a nice guy. and thats not because he's a friend of my dad, but because he cares about our welfare.im going to write a breakdown of the things that i find ridiculous that have happened in the 1month 2 weeks ive been working here.1. She has pictures of her son printed and pasted on her

forgetful xiuzhi :)

2010-06-04T01:04:00.003+08:00

quote of the day: *actually its joke of yesterday*xiu phy n me were on msn talking about old times and i went to visit their blogs past entries. i copied out a chunk of text from xiu's blog. it went something like this.Jing: *copies chunk of text, something about chalet*Xiu: Who Wrote That?Jing: YOU!I nearly fainted haha. its like we've written so many painful things about life and each other

i am not to be packaged.

2010-06-03T12:18:00.002+08:00

i realise for a very long time ive been "packaged" as being part of a whole. never just 1 person. but always 2.in secondary school i was always the "person next to kristy." the person she looked towards when she needed notes, the person she looked to when she needed a shoulder. and although she's been there for me i remember occasions where teachers would tell me "can you help kristy ...". i

poly days nostalgia...

2010-06-02T15:11:00.002+08:00

remember those times.. those stupid times we did really stupid things.1. 4 idiots that got totally baked by sentosa sun and bought 4 identical tubes of aloe vera gel and went to school applying it everywhere they went. (not forgetting 1 idiot who brought sushi to the picnic. IN MY DEF I DID NOT KNOW IT WAS SUSHI IN THE BOX! hahaha)2. hand in hand "marching" up the red brick area to class. i think

ooooooooooooooverview :)

2010-06-02T13:06:00.002+08:00

and just after i typed that entry... 2 people were fired from their job. -_____-" i am psychic! hahaha.i tried sending babyy a e-card T___T but there seems to be some problems with the sending service, not sure if it got thru so i sent him a surprise email too. :X now im kinda hoping he doesnt get the card or it'll seem like the same cos the msg is the same. he may get annoyed that im flooding

rantrantrant$#(@*#&%@

2010-06-02T11:32:00.003+08:00

once again im going to rant.seriously. 9am you tell me you're ready for work, and bf is going to send you there. so ok i go without you.11am, i smsed you twice to ask if you're on the way, or if you're not coming. no replies.1120am, you FINALLY call me and ask me "did you call my house?" so.. you're only worried i **EXPOSED** your truancy, but not worried about skipping work. and now apparently

^___^

2010-06-01T13:26:00.003+08:00

oh and btw, when your boss fires you for "being slow in data entry, and not fit to work in a fast environment", they actually mean "being slow in data entry due to the fact that 99% of the time your data sits there while you spend ur days facebooking and doing who-knows-what." :)

2010-05-31T10:59:00.003+08:00

yes i do realise this blog has become more of a rant. recently im starting to rethink some parts of myself: the emotions, the anger, the spikes and spites im having recently.i perfectly understand why some people would put their spouses and boyfriends before anyone else, because in a way i do too, and im aware of it. not consciously, definitely not because i dont want to let him mix with my

LATE ENTRY BABYYS BDAY!

2010-05-08T17:03:00.003+08:00

*OMG I REALISED TIHS WAS IN MY DRAFTS! I NV PUBLISHED IT!*hehe today was baby's bday. ^^ i bought us tickets to watch transformers at gold class GV. the tickets aren't cheap BUT DAMN ITS WORTH IT!the seats were sooo comfortable. baby din wanna get up! he just kinda sunk all the way into the seat and stayed there.they even had blankets! very warm blankets. the headrests and leg rests can be

2010-04-30T16:57:00.002+08:00

yes i know i havent posted in a damn long time. im at work now cant type much. enjoy this picture.*HINT* Read the featured article. ^^ lets see who spots the joke. :D

2010-03-03T22:28:00.002+08:00

note: i wanted to do phys quiz about relationships but i gave up before i hit question 2. reason: i havent bought a mouse for mac and it sucks without rightclick!

hehehe im happy

2010-02-18T22:05:00.005+08:00

hahaha yes my random assortments of photos!!! i know xiu going to kill me cos i never posted this for a v v v v v v long time. hahahaha phyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! san me and xiu at... ehh dunno where. xiu's hubby paid for that dinner hahaha. xiu and phy and lido with meeee~~~ hahaha. my first meal at new house!!!!!my first baby nochan!!! bought by matt at harbourfront

i cry. silently.

2009-12-17T20:22:00.002+08:00

i want to disappear. i want to run away and never come back, to a place where no one knows me, where i can be alone with the biggest regret ive ever had to bear. only he understands and only he will never judge me. only he will forever need me.i want so much to turn back time and make it ok. to undo all the things ive done. ive heard a song which basically sums it all up.~~It doesnt take much to

wiki is hilarious!

2009-12-10T17:22:00.006+08:00

ok i was doing my school work la, den i was reading wiki. den i noticed this very INTERESTING thing i just HAD to screenshot to post. :Dclick HERE to see it bigger!... :)

weird day + great night

2009-12-08T00:46:00.002+08:00

ok my new module is officially weird. its like MMR, but without the actual research! @_@ i dun get it, its like we learn the theory but we dont need to apply it. so we're PRESUMING we did the research. i guess it is the same when it comes down to it but it feels weird not doing the actual research. i find myself thinking of MMR and our SMRT campaign days, slogging over the computer, not sleeping,

move move move movemovemove!

2009-12-01T00:58:00.001+08:00

oh yea, for those who dont know, ive officially moved house! am in a new house for the past week. my furniture isnt 100% here yet, but when it is i promise id take pics let you all see :D

Another Night Out

2009-11-30T22:58:00.003+08:00

woots. yes last night i went for another craaaaaaaaaaaaaazy night with matt. really the weirdest craziest night ive EVER had.we tried to finish the vodka we left over the last friday (by we i meant matt and his fren cos i got woozy after like 1 glass HAHAHAHA). after drinking (yes i puked. i think i was walking too fast or moving around too much, closing my eyes and all that. embarassing T_T) we

Good Lunch, Amazing Night

2009-11-18T00:50:00.003+08:00

beware this will be a gigantic post!well, first i must say that i did not sleep much the night before. i spent most of the night reading blogs and watching youtube. 50% of me was afraid that i was going to be late to meet xiu haha.but turns out i wasn't late at all. ok so i was, but by like 15mins. she brought me to this little cozy cafe where we had SALAD for lunch. (and she was smart enough to

happy halloween

2009-11-01T23:52:00.002+08:00

well halloween is the unexpectedly happiest day of my life. :D too many reasons to explain, but even thinking back makes me laugh and laugh. so much fun, so little time. i keep staring at the pictures and laughing to myself, thinking what a great time we had.though everyone got drunk and wasted (cept for me seeing i didnt drink anything mroe than 1 TINNNY cup). it was quite funny. ns men at its

2009-10-31T03:17:00.002+08:00

today is probably one of the happiest days of my life :) though it was just the same, a movie, arcade, dinner, and home, but something was different. i dont care anymore whether i think too much or whether it really means what i think it means. all i want to know is im happy and im satisfied. ive missed him so much the past week i thought i was crazy.but today, i felt happy, just being by his

2009-10-31T02:38:00.004+08:00

well since i obviously cannot sms phyphy and tell her HAPPY BDAY!!!! i shall do it here.yes yes i am aware that im about 2 hours late... but in my defence i just got home!!!!sooo... yeahhhh... :) here's my present to our dearest phyphy all the way over in "the other part of the world that's not singapore!"first you must note that i spent some time rummaging through her facebook to find some

BIRTHDAY POST!

2009-10-07T11:29:00.002+08:00

hahaha. first of all thanks to all who smsed me happy birthday, and also thanks to phy who dedicated a blog entry to me xDD! thanks to calvin who dropped by the blogg~well my birthday celebration started promptly at midnight, though i didnt really know it haha. just went for a movie with matt, suddenly he just said "happy birthday~". i was so happy i laughed until my face turned red.this birthday

2009-10-03T03:17:00.001+08:00

so yes, 3 hrs into my bday. it feels weird to know im turning 21 (or already did). had a really nice outing today until i came back at 2am. it was sweet and small, but it meant a lot to me ^^. will update AFTER my bday~ NITES!

2009-09-21T21:09:00.002+08:00

got bored of my old skin =x haha. this is more soothing to the eye i think? =x going to meet xiuzhi tomorrow! cant wait. too bad sandy cant make it. school starts tomorrow. @_@ no idea what its going to be like.i met sandy ON THE BUS! thats amazing considering where she lives! hahaha. heard from weiting recently too~ hope everyone's doing okay!

2009-08-19T01:48:00.001+08:00

well. erm since u wan an update, i'll update. i got into RMIT, kinda feel happy and not so happy at the same time. dont know what to feel or what to do. recently my life has been a blur: things passing by without me noticing, things happening without me realising, and i find myself falling further and further behind everyone else.i guess its all a part of growing up, who knew growing up could be

2009-07-04T00:08:00.003+08:00

finally met up with the girls in almost half a year (or was it mroe than a year?)nothing seems to really have changed much... i think we all grew up somehow. although the silence still feels somewhat comfortable, and there isnt any awkwardness.. it seemed weird, sitting in burger king, chatting about things that happened so long ago. its strange really, suddenly not knowing what the others are

2009-06-26T18:55:00.002+08:00

today's biggest news is probably michael jackson's passings. i think in my life, ive been constantly surrounded by his works, his being and his life. my mum is a great fan of his, and often i've woken up to his songs. numerous scandals and gossips have made michael jackson one of the most prominent beings in my time. its really surprising to hear about his death: his name is legend.amazing singer

2009-06-15T23:17:00.002+08:00

In the Eyes of the BeastIn some time in our lives, we've all said things like "this person is blablabla.. that person is blablabla." i know ive said it more than my fair share, most of the time to unwilling and unsuspecting people. Knowing fully well that someone doesnt deserve it, but still saying it anyway. Sometimes its a matter of feeling superior, others its just to curb your own

2009-06-04T21:38:00.002+08:00

i dont understand why my mum tends to make things bigger than they really are.i accidentally burnt a pot. how was i to know how much that pot cost? i was trying to steam something and i couldnt find the steamer (being because its in the storeroom, and in my 20years of living its never been put there).she comes home pissed, screaming and banging stuff around, just because of her pot. it got so bad

2009-06-04T01:13:00.002+08:00

more movie reviews!Monster Vs Aliens (not the 3D version)cute show, quite entertaining, but minimal plot. funny show, a few unexpected jokes, great show for kids. typical "finding your true self" plot. great effects and graphics though. i think i'd rate it an approximate 4/10 based on plot, 7/10 based on entertainment.Angels and Demonsok let me first point out i watched this at vivo. i reached

2009-06-02T18:46:00.002+08:00

forgotten, forbiddenshadowed and overtakeninsignificant, in existancelike a ghost from the pastmemories, of anotherflooding, coming closera life, you want to rememberforever, forever.two pieces, of a mirrorbroken, unfixablebut still, in your reflectionthe picture is whole.

2009-06-01T22:58:00.001+08:00

today i learnt a very important lesson. i find myself shocked and dumbfounded, that it took me so much to learn that one lesson. but i know this now: i will never. make. that. mistake. again.this is one lesson i will never be able to forget.

2009-05-31T03:41:00.002+08:00

im tired.so tired.afraid of falling asleep.i dont want to wake updont wake me upfrom my beautiful dream.im sick.so sick.afraid of seeing the truth.i dont want to admiti dont want to see thingsas they really may be.dreamsjust dreamsthey're all i haveall that i can believethat i can say, i once livedthe real worldharsh and violentbut in my dreamsi can escapemy heart pangs, it hurts so much. even

2009-05-30T03:33:00.002+08:00

a softer side i sawcomforting, lovingbeneath the layershidden, waitingunder the painthe brutal, the hurtcaring and gentlein touch and in word.hmmm. progress. im making progress. i can feel it in my heart. i can feel the pain. i can feel the hurt of lying, and knowing that i cant lie to anyone anymore. for the first time, i can feel my heart telling me "stop it. its time to really stop it." this

2009-05-26T01:41:00.002+08:00

as i lay quietly in bedpretending to be asleep in your armsi gave myself a small prayerthat tomorrow will never come

2009-05-23T00:41:00.002+08:00

reading phy and xiu's blogs made me realise what ive missed. because both posts were about the things they cherished and missed that we used to have, i realised i missed those same things too. its kinda sad wondering if we can ever get them back.but more than that i miss a lot more. i feel like im now looking at a scrapbook in my life, hoping to get a glimpse of where i changed. i dont know why

2009-05-22T17:13:00.001+08:00

meaningless tearsfalling continuouslysilent sobsalone in the darkbut even as the tears falli wonder whywhy... i cry.it wasnt pain,it wasn't hurt.and yet.. i bled.my heart bled.for some reason i didnt know.but still, i continued to cry.

2009-05-22T00:52:00.000+08:00

hmmm. phy and i were talking about chalet in december... wondering if that's even possible. but there are a lot of uncertainties...1. xiu's leave?2. xiu's baby?3. sandy's free time?4. advanced booking...

2009-05-19T00:06:00.002+08:00

its finally happened: it's starting to mean less and less to me. every day im online i realise im less and less attracted to the game: it's changed too much for me to think about staying there too long. i guess im finally starting to grow up, knowing that one day i will leave this behind and move on. that one day i'll have to. before i started poly i used to play games a lot too. once school

2009-05-17T20:50:00.002+08:00

angels and demons was a great show, but slightly dull compared to the book version. they left out a few key details and interesting twists that i really wanted to see. but overall nt too bad, better than the harry potter remakes at least.spent 4 hours walking along vivo... waiting for the movie to start. imagine this, i reached at 4+ but the only timings that had good seats was a 1225 movie. even

2009-05-12T23:53:00.004+08:00

its been.. almost a year since everything happened. since graduation, since my life started embarking on the road it is still on. all in all im growing older, getting wiser, and i guess maturing in general. i hope so. im not in a rush to grow up, but it suddenly seems inevitable that one day i will have to. im learning a lot these few days, about life, love, and everything in between (i think i

2009-05-12T22:49:00.002+08:00

ghostly memoirsi hear your footsteps,i see you glide bymy tears start to fall,as i reach out to youmy heart pounds and thunders:what if you shirk me away?you walk on, as thoughyou dont see me at allno flicker in your eyeno smile on your facejust the gentle steps on the pavementand you continued that way.i imagine this day,over and over againhow can i get you to see me?i am but a ghost of your

2009-05-07T01:08:00.001+08:00

sometimes the actions of someone makes your own seem effortless. sometimes you think the thought counts, but certain things just cant be overwhelmed even further. there's just too many elements im unsure of, too many things i dont know and may never have the chance to find out.

2009-05-05T23:14:00.002+08:00

scary thought: more and more ppl i dont know are chancing upon my blog. @@ i dont exactly know if thats a good thing or not: i guess good thing about it is they can give me objective POVs without being afraid to hurt me (since they dont know me), while my frens will be.. i guess.. more... erm.. gentle?well ive decided anyhow. a lot of things happened the past week, and last night settled all my

2009-04-26T03:12:00.002+08:00

there are two paths in front of you. the first is a lit path, but at the end you see a future you dont want. the second is a dark path, you cant see anything ahead of you. you dont know if its scarier, or not.which path would you choose to take? most people would advice you to take the lit path, because you know whats in store: at least you know its safe. would you? or would you risk it on a

2009-04-19T18:47:00.002+08:00

im back again.for once i find myself at a loss. words can no longer describe what im feeling. i guess one thing that hit me in my comment box was the word "hide". i wouldnt say that im hiding, but the fear is adequately accepting that as an answer.ive come to question myself about a lot of things. what with being 21, i guess its time to think about life as a whole. and after thinking through it

2009-04-15T16:37:00.003+08:00

well. its been a long time since i wrote something here. its been a long time since i felt the desire to write anything, or talk about anything. rest assured i'm okay. still alive, all body parts intact.a lot has happened this past month. ups, and downs. ive missed out on a lot of things i deeply regret, but its too late now. i guess you can say ive been MIAing from almost everything. almost no

2009-02-05T11:43:00.001+08:00

To everyone:I’ve got something to confess. I’ve been acting like a jerk to all of you. I’ve told all of you stories about Matt that weren’t real. I’ve lied about certain things to different people. I manipulated with your feelings and told all of you one-sided stories just to make myself look good and to make him look like an ass. Truth is, none of it is true. In the past when I told you Matt and

2009-02-03T13:15:00.002+08:00

im just back from the doctor's... let me first tell you what happened.i was at a meeting with my boss and the rest, when suddenly this mirror dropped on my head. the mirror is a big mirror with a wooden frame, approximately those painting sized ones. it crashed right on the left side of my head.everyone was stunned. they were all asking me if i was okay. everyone was worried. but i totally went

2009-01-23T11:29:00.001+08:00

ive got my first pay. it's a total of... $1161. considering in holidays and weekends. literally wise i worked exactly 1 month. as in ive been sitting in this office for a FULL month. but realisitically speaking, because of leave and public holidays, ive actually been here for 1.5months. though some might say for 1.5 months 1161 is considered LITTLE. but den if u consider that ive only worked here

2009-01-22T18:22:00.002+08:00

breathe.breathe.breathe and do nothing. breathe and wait. countdown... 3 weeks.1 more month's magazine.Finish Ace and Ray.And then leave.Leave knowing you regret nothing.Leave knowing you've tried your hardest.And leave knowing she'll never understand.

2009-01-22T17:42:00.001+08:00

nothing i do is right. thank goodness Love's always there to make me feel better ^^

2009-01-21T18:05:00.001+08:00

its strange how 3 words can make me happy for so long. even thinking about it now makes me tingly and happy inside.i guess in a way because you dont expect it from someone like him, so when it does happen, it makes you feel good inside. it was really unexpected.. especially from him. it's those things you'll normally say (for some), that you'll feel there is no significance in it. but ive grown

2009-01-20T11:30:00.003+08:00

strange, but the one comment written on my blog made me post this. yes strange.ever heard of the saying you dont miss it until its gone? heard of uncertainties you'll never understand, secrets you can never bear to tell anyone.afraid of what someone might see you as, afraid they'll treat you differently?i thought i changed. maybe i did. i used to be worried about how others saw me that i failed

2009-01-14T16:15:00.002+08:00

a rose for a day that everyone saysa star for a moment to comea heart for a memory that wont go awaya dream for the future yet to becomea hug for the friends far far awaya goodbye to those who have yet to goa smile for the the ones who chose to staya kiss for the one who knowssomething a friend wrote in her blog (Okay it was a comment) struck me as strange.friendship seems to be a very

2009-01-13T18:12:00.001+08:00

oh and btw i WATCHED PONYO PONYO! its not that bad really. but kinda like a little mermaid thing. though i prefer ponyo. at least ponyo's cute. like she does these little cute things that kids would do.i still prefer twilight xD hahaha

2009-01-13T18:12:00.000+08:00

work's starting to cool down. maybe because ive gotten used to it. wont say that i like the job or not: to me its just work. nothing more nothing less.

2009-01-09T18:22:00.000+08:00

i feel like something's missing. but hey its friday! FRIDAY FINALLY! == i can sleep late tonight and not worry about waking up tomorrow YAY~!!!!still got to buy CNY clothes.. i'll prob do it online =(

2009-01-06T15:09:00.002+08:00

oh yes as a side note, i watched a lot of movies the past week. here's my take on them.7 pounds: not bad for a will smith show. unexpected ending, kinda touching. considerably quite worth watching.lady cop and papa crook: ehh.. no comments about this one. plot's on an OKOK basis, but KIINNNDA lame.transporter 3: very good. loved the show.ponyo ponyo: song irritated me too much to actually watch

2009-01-06T14:51:00.002+08:00

okok IM BLOGGING! some stuff happened to me recently. i shant go into details but its really frustrating.ok on 2nd thoughts i will go into detail.ive been working for about 2 weeks, see. its quite hectic cos i have to write a lot of articles. especially since the editor himself isnt around, im rushing to write most of the februrary issue. and its quite a lot. and because im so engrossed in

2008-12-31T15:44:00.002+08:00

thanks to all who have spammed my blog. yeah new year NEW YEAR!rather than resolutions, lets remember the good things about 20081. Xiu's baby birth! remember how panicky we all were.. phy and i even wanted to bring fruits down but her mum wouldnt let us!2. Xiu's wedding. fretting over the gift, FORGETTING TO BRING THE GIFT (this was phy's xD)3. graudation. our graduation was at least the four of

2008-12-30T14:17:00.002+08:00

added a song to my blog. reflects my moood woo~ (note that the woo is for sentence purposes im not really going woo)thanks to phy for spamming my tagboard (yes i agree they need a longer word limit). i'll try to blog as much as i can.office is same as always. sleepy. boss not around. sleepy. yes very sleepy. extremely sleepy.im halfway through all the articles. trying my best to finish as fast as

2008-12-29T12:11:00.002+08:00

Have you ever been surrounded by so many, and yet you feel strangely alone? Imagine looking around you, all your closest friends in the same room, and yet strangely enough, it is you that doesn't seem to belong? They may smile at me, laugh with me, but all I see now, are faceless expressions staring back at me.Don't mistake me, it's not loneliness. It's something more profound that no one word

2008-12-24T15:57:00.001+08:00

omg i stole this frm my fren's blog. ITS FUNNY!DORMITORYWhen you rearrange the letters :DIRTY ROOMPRESBYTERIANWhen you rearrange the letters :BEST IN PRAYERASTRONOMERWhen you rearrange the letters :MOON STARERDESPERATIONWhen you rearrange the letters :A ROPE ENDS ITTHE EYESWhen you rearrange the letters :THEY SEEGEORGE BUSHWhen you rearrange the letters :HE BUGS GORETHE MORSE CODEWhen you

2008-12-23T17:03:00.000+08:00

It’s been too long since I last blogged. But I’m doing it now because I got a very important issue (and its bugging me a little).I’m now working as the assistant editor of WaWa magazine, and I was doing research on a worldwide charity organisation to use for an article. BUT THEN I CANT FIND ANY ORGANISATION THAT ISN’T CHRISTIAN!It’s really sad, because I saw a few organisations that really moved

2008-12-01T21:24:00.002+08:00

i havent blogged for a long time. actually i havent shown my online presence in a while now. been doing some thinking on my own. catching up with old friends.met sharon and jes that day. after so long meeting those mediacorp kuku-heads was fun. hahaha.i miss phy and san the most, met xiu for madagascar2, not that bad. first time she was out w/o azalea (yay i got it right!). she was kinda panicky,

2008-11-17T07:37:00.003+08:00

hmm. i dont know what to say. i used to be afraid of writing here because i dont know who reads it. maybe thats' the reason i dont blog here anymore.im trying not to think at all but its not easy for some reason i woke up at 7.30 (despite sleeping at 2.30) and i cant go back to bed.o well.

2008-11-15T14:47:00.003+08:00

the worst has happened. i expected it to. okay its not worst, persay. but its horrible.but for now there's nothing i can do.just wondering in my brain and pretending that it means nothing to me.what's exactly happening, im not sure either. i just know.. its beginning to hurt all over again. its getting better. im coping well. but. its not.not yet.something's still pestering me at the back of my

2008-11-09T16:57:00.002+08:00

notice that im blogging lesser nowadays. i know that too. but ive lost the motivation to blog altogether. starting to feel that maybe keeping it to myself is much better.but im going to continue writing, even though i really feel that i have nothing more to say.miss the girls. cant wait to see you guys again.

2008-11-01T19:00:00.000+08:00

im feeling really depressed lately.and insecure.until i no longer know what im going to do.i cant handle this.i cant accept it.i cant move on.and worse of all...i cant let go.

2008-10-30T23:55:00.001+08:00

time has flown by. im feeling lower and lower. i dont know if i can ever pick myself up again this time.

2008-10-27T22:36:00.000+08:00

maybe one day time will change my decision. maybe soon, maybe never. i dont know. but i do know i will stand by him no matter what. even if everyone argues in my favor, i'll stand by him. even if not for my feelings, just because he was always there for me. thats enough.

2008-10-27T01:49:00.002+08:00

today was phyphy's birthday bash. was fun, really~we played games, talked about random stuff, and more or less saw her closest friends in the same room.but something was eating me away.something was missing.phyllis and shawnsandy and fitrixiuzhi and michaelme.something was seriously missing. and today it was more obvious than it ever could be. it wasnt just the missing of a presence. he seemed to

2008-10-22T12:43:00.002+08:00

until today, a day hasnt gone by that i havent cried about it. yes it still hurts. maybe now more than ever. but he can never know.maybe somewhere in the future i will stop crying, someday i will move on. but for now, maybe i dont want to? im not sure either...

2008-10-21T01:33:00.002+08:00

its over.but its okay.we're friends.that's how it's meant to be.no matter how much it hurts me to say it now. i loved you. and i always will, but now as a friend, maybe a brotherly figure. but that's all you said we could ever be.in the past, ive seen blood of others. the blood splashed on my hands i knew wasnt my own. but this time, i know its my own.

2008-10-19T04:32:00.002+08:00

i seem to be blogging a lot recently. =D things have turned out for the better i guess. =D i think im just being too paranoid. =D i should really stop thinking so much. ^^ hehe.cant wait to see all 4 girls at the SAME TIME! WE STILL HAVENT BEEN ABLE TO DO THAT!!!! i dont think xiu can go swimming with baby around on thurs, right?i MISS CHALET. <<< VERY BIG HINT. I. MISS. CHALET.okay yes im being

2008-10-17T01:33:00.002+08:00

haii..problems are starting to arise in every part of my life right now. im just glad that i have good frens to tide it with me, and a bf to hold me if i should fall.

2008-10-15T03:10:00.002+08:00

i hate today.i hate today.i hate today.today is officially the worst day of my life.my parents are trying to get me to let go of one of the only thing that keeps me in touch with the people that have made my life better. they dont understand how these people have pulled me through everything: how these people amidst everyone else have stood by me, and how ultimately one of these people became the

2008-10-14T21:00:00.000+08:00

i hate it.i hate the feeling of non-existance.i hate feeling as though i mean nothing to no one.i hate feeling that i dont exist.

2008-10-08T22:23:00.002+08:00

had a good day with jaz last night.. hanging out w him and ivan talking about crap. was fun. though i spent like 2 hours sleeping near his house...phy's bday is coming up soon... (Thanks phy btw for the card. i just opened it) wonder how it'll be like.. never been to a 21st bday bashy before~!sandy's obviously still busy, havent heard from her at all...xiuxiu... well.. hehe. i've talked to xiu on

2008-10-05T01:03:00.003+08:00

heyhey~ birthday post! yes i realise im 1 day late... BUT STILL~~~first of all thanks to all those who sms-ed me:1. Tezuka-kun aka Aloy2. Szeyuan3. Alfin4. Jasper dear5. Limin6. Xiuxiu (she wanted to be the last lol)Thanks also to all who wished me online (m putting nicknames cos they dun wanna let me post their real names):1. Vile2. Penguin3. Ace4. Sza5. Happyhead*a lot more but i really dont

2008-09-24T00:43:00.000+08:00

Sorry people~ havent been posting much. Been spending some time with Jaz. ^^ life so far for me is good. Not great, not 100% perfect, but it's picking up.Just glad i got to meet phy and xiu the other day. Sandy, cant wait to see you. Get well soon so we can meet.**dating an army boy is hard work T_T, but at least its a 9-5 so its not that bad hehe**

2008-09-12T11:11:00.003+08:00

we've given each other enough chances. maybe even one too many.i thought last night settled it all. i thought i could face tomorrow bravely, looking forward and moving on.i went back to all those places, the place you once promised me you would never let me get hurt, the place you swore to protect me. ironically now im back here, after it all, swearing on this exact same place that im going to

2008-08-24T12:43:00.002+08:00

i havent posted in a while.. haha been really busy. but if u asked me doing what, i dont really know.jap results are out. i didnt do too badly... but now the question remains whether im gg to continue taking it or not... i'll have to talk to phyphy about it.. if she decides not to do the 2nd module... i dont know if i'll continue doing it alone...life is like a roller coaster right about now...

2008-08-12T21:24:00.002+08:00

it's been a while since ive posted something here.xiu and her baby azealea have gone home, resting at home (i was going to say resting in peace but i realised that sounds a little... dead. but when i wrote it i was intending it to mean without the "squabbles of other ppl" and "other babies crying". dont mind me)phy and i are almost done with our jap course, i quit working with my dad.ive been

2008-07-29T04:01:00.000+08:00

another update:baby will be out in 45 minutes. WORLD MEET AZEALEA!

2008-07-29T03:50:00.002+08:00

update on xiu:heard from her brother, right now at 3.51am she hasnt given birth yet. apparently she's not dilated enough, so they're going to go do a C-section, and if all goes well little azealea will be born on the 29th of july, at around 6am!!! ^^ cant wait to see little azealea for the first time.we're all eagerly waiting the birth of little baby girl~

2008-07-29T03:27:00.002+08:00

http://6shikochan9.wordpress.com/shiko i know you'll be back to read this. your last post really got to me. really. i sat there thinking how things have changed, how so many things are different now. from our first GPQ, to our first balrog. all those firsts. things then were much simpler, and it was so much fun having all you guys around.now that you and spitz have gone, things have changed so

2008-07-29T02:55:00.002+08:00

i guess for sandy's sake i'll blog a detailed one. ^^ since poor sandy is out and knows nothing.at noon i got a message from xiuzhi. same one that she sent to phyllis. she told me she was on the way to the hospital, to get checked.i tried replying her but she couldnt turn on her phone, thus couldnt reply me. so i smsed phyllis and sandy to inform them, and kept my phone beside me.at 3pm xiu

2008-07-22T00:11:00.002+08:00

manipulative. liar. not trustworthy.these are the words that have been used to describe me lately. i've really thought abt all these to myself, because its what a good friend told me. he told me all these, and said he couldnt trust me. that he regretted ever meeting me. he knows everything about me, from what i did to nick, and beyond. i dont want to see myself as a liar, or a manipulative person